dear son taue...
dear son peter...
there has been sometime already…
that my mind “spaces-out” through some memories…
recalling… several moments that we’ve been together…
now… I’m with my life all settled-down…
here in the farm… with maria…
enjoying a healthy life…
a life which I've always dreamed about…
I’m taking care of myself…
eating the good meals prepared by maria with all her love…
in short…
enjoying a life where there’s nothing to complain about…
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but… the sentiment of missing-you-guys is enormous…
but… that’s ok…
I don’t want to interfere in your lives…
I want you guys to move-on with your lives…
with courage… wisdom… tenderness…
and kindness towards everyone surrounding you…
being able to stand up for your rights…
calmly… with good-manners… and without aggressiveness…
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since you are in the united-states…
and I’m in brasil…
then… the best way to diminish the distance between us…
is to write emails like this one…
emails where there’s no predetermined subject…
simply an email where the conversation flows…
motivated by the pure pleasure of the conversation itself…
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I’m willing now… to talk a little-bit about myself…
telling you a little-bit of the history-of-my-life…
as surprising as it can be… very often…
in spite of living together for a long time…
very often… we forget to stop… and talk about basic-facts of our lives…
usually… we are so absorbed… in our daily worries…
that we forget to spare a little time...
to REVEAL to the dear ones that surround us…
such important issues which are the fundamental facts of our own history…
when I was six-month-old… me… my sister ana emilia… my father and my mother…
moved to boston…
my father got a scholarship from the brazilian-navy…
to study in the master’s program…
at MIT… ( massachusetts institute of technology )…
we stayed there for only three years…
so I can’t recall anything from this period…
the only thing I can tell… from the stories my mother later told me…
was that… at this time… when I was a very little baby…
I didn’t want to eat at all..
then… she took me to the doctor… there… in boston…
the doctor told her to buy a funnel…
and... to make a soup…
and… to pour the soup down into my throat through the funnel…
and… can you imagine that she completely believed on the doctor’s advice…
and she tried to do exactly what he told her to do…?
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I’m stopping the story at this point…. today…
because I don’t want to take too much time away from you…
later on… please… let me know if you’re interested in knowing more…
about the continuation of these stories of my life…
if you tell me that you’re interested…
I’ll be happy to continue…
writing emails like this one…
otherwise…
I’m going to find something else to do…
please feel free to ask me any kind of questions…
doubts… any kind of doubts…
any subject…
from the past… present or future…
all the care that I’ve been giving during all my life… to you…
still remains valid…
and you know it...
you know that I’m always ready…
to do... the "possible" and the "impossible"… for you...
please… consider me always a friend…
never an enemy…
avoid listening to bad advices…
from people who… by some reason…
want to encourage a division between us
never let yourselves be deluded…
thinking that I don’t deserve the trust from you…
it would be a waste…
to think that I don’t deserve the trust from you…
and… as a consequence… to hide something from me…
I believe… that there are some people that keep trying to convince you…
that your grand-mom is evil…
that I am evil…
I respect these people’s opinions…
but… if we allow ourselves to listen to this kind of opinion…
we end up all “sinking”…
because one of the easiest way to weaken a person…
it’s to convince this person to be against his own father…
… or his own mother…
in the popular wisdom… there’s a saying which illustrates this fact very well:
“the union makes the force”…
( I’m not sure if your keyboard deals with the latin-character “c-cedilha”…
for the word "forca"… "forsa"… "fortaleza"… a strong-person…)
so… a divided family… is a weak family…
everybody loses…
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so…
if we start practicing the exercise of communicating more frequently…
this would make us stronger…
this would bring benefits to all of us…
a family where there’s no habit of talking…
becomes a weak family…
a fragile family…
vulnerable to the adversities of life…
you attended a good school… the notre dame…
fortunately you have good moral principles…
but these good-principles should be constantly updated…
constantly improved
constantly being aware of…
the world is always spinning…
a person can be very healthy one day…
and… on a wheelchair… next day…
complete attention sometimes is not enough…
let’s be even more united than we are right now…?
would you be willing to trust on me…
… the way we’ve always used to do…?
thankyou for reading this email…
see you soon…
a super-super-super hug…
your father…
…luis antonio…